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Saturday, August 22, 2009
♥ 12:58 AM

School has just started and my workloads have piled up like a small mountain which I sometimes wonder when am I going to finish the endless works in my hands. Week 1 has just ended and I'm still not prepared for school. I feel myself hard to cope with it, maybe is because my heart is not with me but somewhere.

I got to read this short story from somewhere and somehow it reflects my feeling that I have all this while. Sometimes, I think myself dumb, why am I holding on... but I realise I'm not holding on to it

I realise I just feel the same way for him when the 1st time I ever saw him, the guy who came late for the class and went off early. The first impression of this guy: Irresponsible! However, this was also why I have a deep impression of him. I know some people may think this kind of thing will not exist in this real world, but I still believe in it - Loving someone at First Sight. I did fall in love with him when I first saw him and I always think the way we get to know each other is different from other because we fall in love in a foregin land. That's why, it motivates me to even treasure this relationship even more because I thought God has specially arranged this great gift for me after hurting myself so much in my previous one. I thanks God every night I slept because to me, you are the greatest gift that ever given to me by God. But somehow it got taken away.

I can't deny it. My eyes just can't fall on any other guys. I tried but ended up, I failed. Loving someone is not by having him by your side, it means by giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful rish to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity... and that is love.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart.
Only love can make you cry and only love knows why.
Only love can make you stare in blank, wondering why am I here without you by my side,
Only love can make you realise how meaningless your life can be, without someone that special in your life to walk with.

Monday, August 03, 2009
♥ 11:33 AM

Yesterday, I couldn't sleep, memories flashed back on my mind.... I thought I have totally forgotten about him but I didn't. Memories of him just came back, one image by another... and slowly it made my heart turn sour. The tears dropped down gently on my cheeks. I felt the warmth of the water on my face.


Why?


Why the memories of him still lingered on my mind? I thought I have forgotten about him but in the end, I just realised that I still do miss him. Maybe this is no longer concerned for him, that he doesn't bother anymore... I know I have to move on, i have tried but I failed. I wished that I will be alittle heartless, at least I won't feel so heart pains now... at least I will live for the better and forget someone's lies and causing me pain.


No matter what, I wish you all the best and do well in everything you do... The memories will always stay with me, deep down in my heart.


Unforgotten...




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MaY 琬婷
Age: 19
First Cry: 5th July
Graduated from NYP
Exco of SIT CLUB
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Business Management
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